Oh and you just figured this out. This angers me so much. This was probably the biggest reason why I dropped out was because I was suicidal and depressed. I tried to tell the adults teachers,administrators etc….. Because I wanted help, it took so much for me to say it to them but they just if ignored it like it was nothing. I finally dropped out due to the fact that the physical bullying was getting worse (and the a ministrations would then and look the other way and ignore it) and because I was being publicly humiliated by one of the administrators. It’s sad because if they would have helped I may have gotten better instead of worse. It angers me. I became hopeless and finally I stopped caring and eventually wanted out of the hell I was in and dropped out. Adults think they know everything. To bad they don’t. Or maybe that just every adult I know.

You know that moment when you really just need someone…anyone to talk to….but no one is there……..yeah welcome to my world 24/7……

It’s been about a year clean now….. I have made no progress since then either but hey, a year clean I guess that’s something

I feel lonely even on here anymore……..

I wish I had someone who understood what I am going through…it’s hard to stay strong with one person supporting you. Though I know it’s better then none….It still sucks because sometimes they don’t understand……i just want someone that understand my issues….whatever they are

Ask me questions

I’ll answer anything.

it isnt even worth living…..all i do is quit. or fail or just die….i want to just ends this im so sick of this….

I have never ever fully meant this but i hate you. With such a burning passion i have done everything for you and you don’t do anything in return. Your my parents for god say aren’t you supposed to help your child not just let them sit there and basically drowned in there own sadness. I hate you both so much. The one person that actually tries to help me and your trying to keep me from him. Fuck you guys. I love him and he is the only one that seems to give a damn about my well being. I fucking hate you both. I hope you realize what your doing. You wont until i leave and then you may not even realize what you have done. I hope you die alone and realize that you should have been nicer to me you should have listened to me you should have fucking TRIED TO HELP not make it worse!!!!

This is starting to kill me slowly, why are you so ashamed of the way i dress and act. My Own parents…i just feel soo….hated right now.

I give up. I’m done fighting this battle.


I hate this pain…i just want to end it…fucking please can i end it…

I’m waiting for you to get sick of me. To the point where you don’t want anything to do with me anymore. Just like the rest…i don’t want you to end that way i really don’t but im so scared you will neglect me and leave just like everyone else did….



Like it matters, no one will show up if i did a birthday party. I’m to antisocial anymore.

Basically my life. 

Basically my life.